Something I’ve been struggling with since I started this blog was the fact that my photographs are purely aesthetic. Sure, they’re used to showcase the outfit or beauty product but besides that – there isn’t some huge philosophical meaning behind the photographs.
I’ve touched on this in a few other posts but I recently graduated with a degree in photography. a degree in fine art photography – whatever that means. My coursework was hard. It was time consuming, frustrating and it was beyond difficult to come up with new conceptual ideas all the time. I realized quickly that the only fine art photography I was really suited for was self-portraiture, which I guess is why blogging came somewhat easy for me – at least in the photography of it. My self-portrait work in school was so different than what I make for this blog. I made portraits that dealt with being a twin, not being able to see, feeling alone, etc. And now what? I take pictures of myself with different outfits? I’m not saying it’s a bad thing – in fact it’s the farthest thing from that. And don’t get me wrong, I think fashion photography can tell a beautiful story but it’s not one I’m used to telling.
But – sometimes it feels silly, trivial, shallow.
But sometimes I am really happy with what I’m making. I can honestly say if I hadn’t made this blog I probably wouldn’t have picked up my camera since I graduated. That makes me sad but also really dang happy that I made this blog in the first place.
When I took these particular photos, I kind of forgot I was taking photos for the blog. I got swept up in the conceptual ideas that have been sitting in my mind for a long time. So, I apologize these aren’t the best photos to showcase my outfit but I like them nonetheless. I’d never really played with backlighting until I started this blog (unless I was purely making a silhouette) and it’s really fun!
Let me know what you think in the comments!